Sunday Online Worship- May 5, 2018

Sunday Online Worship- May 5, 2018

Today I am attending the service while doing this blog. I always like jotting down notes while attending a service. Of course I don’t take notes the whole time. It’s important we worship and hear and do the words of our Lord.

Today I am so sad and broken and I do not know what to do. We are all sinners especially me today.  I pray that I can redeem myself and I know I get like this when I lack prayers in everyday. We should always be careful that by being good in everything we do or by trying to serve others and do good works in our community , we do not forget to have a personal time with God through Jesus Christ.

My silent time is non-existent and I couldn’t agree more that I lack prayers and relationship with our Lord this whole month. He gave me a job and made it smooth of a transition for me. All of my prayers were answered and yet I failed to keep in touch. Made some compromise which I shouldn’t because He is King of Kings and he doesn’t need anything of us for him to answer our prayers but to repent and believe in Jesus Christ. I struggle to feel not a disgrace to this very fortunate situation we are in. We are saved by grace and not by works.

The service tonight said that the devil will try to remind us of who we were. And I believe earlier today that’s what happened in me. All of my hope, love and faith gone in one flash. And I do think living on is not an option like there will be no more for me in the future and yet here I am regained inside and remembered I am child of God.

It is so good to be loved by our Lord and I do appreciate feeling like this and in reality I believe I should really be communicating with God in everyday asking the Holy Spirit for guidance because we need constant help from our Lord. We need his light, his love, He is everything there is and we should all aim to be by his side one day and not concern ourselves with trivial stuff in this world. We are not of this world. We should aim for what is not of this world for the everlasting life with Jesus Christ.

Very well I know it well when I am with people that believe but I should remain believing even with unbelievers although when you remove one burning coal away from the hearth then the burning will subside but bring it back and it will burn with the rest.

This blog for today may be so weird and so out of place some things written here but this is how I feel while hearing the word of God. Most realization happens while I am worshiping which is so great and I should do in everyday in my personal way.

I’ve been blessed so much. Thank you Lord!

While we are here this is our verse of the day:

“do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.”

Philippians 4:6 ESV

All has been quite well and God did hear my prayers but I did not keep my end. I should and I shouldn’t be doing it again telling our Lord I will do this and that if my prayers are answered I do not have the right to do that because our God will answer prayers even without our good words to be made in the future. We should do good works to glorify God and not because we want our prayers to be answered because it wasn’t for that purpose. I could say it is an old habit when I wasn’t a Christian yet. Although this couldn’t always be the excuse and I shouldn’t make this excuse and I should be strong to keep my words and to do everything to honor God.

In everything we do let’s do it for the Lord.

 

Purity and Passion

Purity and Passion

I’ve been reading this book for some time now. I always say I will read it in one go but it took me forever and today I decided to finish this book. It is a Christian book by Elizabeth Elliot.  I still didn’t finish it yet but I might just update you guys when I did. This book shows me how sweet love, young love should be. I didn’t finish it yet but it taught me a lot already.

I always am cautious about being too sexual with my boyfriend. Saving myself for marriage isn’t just about not having sex it is about saving all that should be saved and only be given to my future husband. Meaning if we can’t do it with my friends looking at us that means it is not appropriate. We can hold hands yes or maybe I can lean on his shoulders but the hard part is we are far apart. He is in another country and I am in my own country. We have different customs and beliefs which is hard and not to mention different language.

We were very sexual when we were together before and it is not very good. That was before I was Christian but then it continued even when we were far apart. I’ve explained to him that we should change because I know better now and I know that God has plans for me and He knows what is best. He had been so patient with me and although he did say he cannot promise if we meet again that he wont try to be initiating sexual things but it he also said that it is up to me to say no. And if I say no he wont do anything that I do not want. So it comes down to me and my discipline and my faith in our Lord Jesus that he will help me with this struggle that we have.

Many of the girls might have had this problem and I for one am having it almost my whole adult life. Before I really do wanna save myself for marriage but all of my boyfriends will promise that they will marry me but all of them did not obviously. Although I think it is because of lack of faith or being young that we did what we did. Now that I am reborn and have a second chance, I should know better.

Being in a relationship half of my life I have this notion that if I do not give them what they want then I might be left alone, broken and sad. There is no sure way to know if they will stay with you or not. But now that I am with Jesus I know that all I have to do is give my all to Him and for sure He wont leave me alone. If my boyfriend couldn’t understand why I wanna keep the marriage bed undefiled then maybe he will leave me. But that will be for my sake and that will be better than we both sin together.

Hebrews 13:4

“Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous.”

Maybe if I do not find that one that will wait for me, that will honor me, and will be courageous enough to walk with me with Christ then maybe being single is better. It did not say that having a family is the end goal of life. The truth is honoring God, and being with God after our life in this world is over is the end goal.

Saying that, I should restrain myself more. We do not do anything so sexual anymore until today when he called me video call and I’ve been trying to lose weight. I got this thigh gap and I showed it to him but then he suddenly asked if I not wearing panties which I got defensive and showed him that I am indeed wearing them. After the call he told me he felt an urge when he saw my legs and panty. I didn’t know it would give him such an impact and I shouldn’t have done that too. I was just so accustomed to him seeing me with just my undergarments when we were still together that I didn’t notice. He did behave well and I didn’t so it is my fault.

After he said that I decided to think and to write this post. People do mistakes but we all should know how to repent and to know better next time. We should ask for the guidance of the Holy Spirit everyday to help us, give us knowledge and show us the right way.

We shouldn’t wake anything up until it is time. We should wait until marriage before giving ourselves because our body is not ours. It is a temple used to worship God and we should keep it Holy. I will do my best, we should all do our best. -Rizza♥


 

Behold the new has come

Behold the new has come

2Corinthians 5:17

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”

The good news was share to me this January of 2018. I was overwhelmed and overjoyed and I couldn’t contain myself. I read the Bible ever since from the moment I wake up until night before I sleep. I was on fire! I do not know what to do and who to talk to after hearing the good news.

I went to see my best friend of 17 years. She shared the gospel to me over and over but for some reason it didn’t really hit me that time. The previous three years of my life though was a challenge. Those years were a challenge and in those three years I even considered taking my own life. I was so helpless and thought just ending it all might really really stop it all. I was in the middle of an ugly divorce and in a new but I would say at that time an ugly relationship too.

Everything was dark and ugly until I knew Jesus. Before I really didn’t think it will help and I did question why all of those awful things happened to me too but maybe as we go along in this blog of mine I could tell the stories to you guys. My life is an ugly clump of disappointments and sins but I got a second chance, a new life with Jesus by my side and with the help of the Holy Spirit I know now I can do everything.

Isaiah 1:18

“Come now, let us reason together, says the Lord: though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow: though they are red like crimson, they shall become like wool.”

Writing makes my mind stop thinking all the time and I need that to function sometimes so I will blog and blog and blog until I am contented. Until I am freed from all these things I think and I wanna say. When I woke up today I decided to make this blog— a separate one to share my Christian journey.

Baptism is not a prerequisite for salvation but what it does is to declare that I am no longer of this world, I no longer belong with the enemy but I now belong to Christ. I am now forever His. My life, my body, my soul and everything I do is to glorify Him. Although I wont be able to really do it all the time as I know myself but I do try to always give thanks and glorify God.

Before I thought there is nothing about this baptism but I think I do certain things different now and I am more careful now in everything I do and say. My skills in blogging is not much but I will do better soon enough. I have many concerns and I have many stories to tell so I will be blogging everyday and may we all talk about things like this and do not be shy to share your stories too and you can always comment and I will try to always reply. We should remember to always pray and that we should remember that we are not alone.